A Thought from the Greywatcher (01)

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Arrow River – Arrowtown.  Photo taken by Me.  Reminds me how beautiful nature is when I am stuck inside at my computer.

 

Often I have typed out my thoughts, like a conversation between me and my computer, so I can revisit and reflect upon them.  An act I that has become a habit due to my study towards a teaching degree.  Yet, I have avoided posting them on this blog because I deemed sharing such thoughts unnecessary – until I remembered that I had set this blog up to include ‘Poetry, Short Stories and Thoughts from the Mind.’

So far, I have really added none of these ‘thoughts’ of mine except in some of my poetry.

That is a good thing right?

When I set up this blog I had a vision of a space where

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Changing to a more positive mindset has helped me make important changes and try things I would never have attempted.  Still a no to skydiving though… heights terrify me.

I could build up my confidence in writing again, and most importantly myself.  I didn’t expect people to follow it, to care about what I have written because I was so used to thinking negatively about myself.  That negative thinking is a habit I have been slowly breaking and my confidence in my writing and myself has grown significantly since starting this blog and making other changes in my life.  Though I should mention I have been in the process of changing myself for the past five years: a decision I came too after going to counselling about my panic attacks (which ended up me acknowledging my anxieties and my childhood/teenage years and allowed me to begin healing and creating a better me, by making changes and accepting the pieces people saw as “different/not normal” – the person I wanted to be)… this is my journey though, the path that I walk.  When I gave up trying to fit in with the crowd and please everyone, I found my happiness.

 

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Lake Wakatipu, Queenstown.  Photo taken by Me.  I love the sound of the lake, the small waves gently crashing against the stony shore.  One of the best locations to relax.

 

One new change I have made recently is to put my work out their to “be judged”.  I was always interested in entering poetry competitions yet avoided them because of the fear of rejection and my belief that I just wasn’t that good so why put myself out there to get my feelings hurt.  So I entered my first poetry competition the other month, it is run locally and while I think my poem will not place, I will allow myself hope.  If there are people out there that like the work I place on my blog – thank you all by the way – then I must be doing something good.  What entering the competition has done though is give me access to – which I consider to be the important part – the poetry workshop the next day (very important).  Aside from the English classes I had taken up until 5th form, I have had no other lessons in creative writing – something I have recently been looking at changing.  Learning is life-long after all, it never stops and I enjoy the pursuit of learning new knowledge, seeing and understanding different perspectives.  Diversity is beautiful.

 

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50 Followers Reached!

 

 

What is really cool though, and what kind of sparked me into writing this while post, is that the other day I reached 50+ followers on my blog.  To me, that is a lot of people.  So thank you all for choosing to follow Tales from the Greywatcher.  I hope you enjoy the future poems, photos, thoughts and short stories that will appear here.

 

 

~ Greywatcher

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